This time last year i was preparing for a daughter and now i have a son. Though my life didnt take the corse i wanted or even liked i have come to peace with all that has happened. Now dont get me wrong im not saying that the fellings of sadness and pain are gone or even that its ok but i have come to realize in the past two years that noting is ever in my control, every thing and every one in my life belongs to God and he can do with everything as he sees fit. No i wont always know why or when things will happen but i know now that i have to let go and let him be in control, every thing in his time not mine. I have been know to be a scheduler, everything down to the minute! lately i have been struggling to get Romeo on a schedule and as you might imagine with a newborn it is very difficult to have him awake when he is supposed to be so that he can sleep through the night. In the past two days i think we have finally gotten it down, i actually got 5hrs of sleep last night and to me that feels like sleeping through the night seeing as how my husband and i both have been delerious lately due to lack of sleep. im hoping that things will even out soon.
i have been breast feeding my son for the past 6 weeks and just recently had to start supplementing with formula. Im trying really hard not to feel discouraged about that fact, im taking some herbs that a good friend suggested but i havent seen an increase in milk or its consistancy...i know that my body is trying to be done but im fighting it as hard as i can. i know its best for my baby and not to mention cheaper!! im just hoping that i can keep going.
and the baby cries.. i guess thats it for today
